hi guys, thanks fer reading once again.

Been pretty busy lately, and all not about school work (lol) so today just gonna type in some experiences i have lately.

I believe that God has blessed us with the ability to do anything. Recently due to my schedule, i have body aches everyday and often left in fatigue. But I always wanted to try to test whether the brain is capable of activities that would alter bodily motions and systems. For example in the morning after i wake up and walk to school, i told my brain : "Begin wake up program, refresh body rate at 10% interval" Then i would concentrate on waking up my body ( take note i walk and do so ), the sensation is more like you are forcing your brain to wake up, it WILL send shivers down your spine. as in literally, so tat you know you are advancing. Keep doing so till you think you reach 100%. usually I have problems once i hit around 60-70%. but its possible to refresh your state of mind to more than 100%

Still not convinced? Here's a starter i invented to "feel" the sensation. I will do so in steps so that if you do not feel, go back to the previous step and start over.

1- close your eyes and take a deep breath
2- meditate, literally empty your thoughts and focus on the darkness
3- now envision your brain and imagine the excess fluids or strain in your head drain away down your spine
4- (this is the crucial point to me) concentrate on the brain section on the lower back part of your head, envision the brain juices spreading (you should feel it)


at first i thought i was delusional, but i tested the above test on someone, of course i was more detailed, and this self hypnotism is really helpful to get rid of stress, problem is i often have too much stress and have very little time sitting down...

Today was the first time i went wake boarding, and boy was it tough. i went under the school, and there was this girl who kept pestering all those who signed up to showed up... of course i had to go.

$40 for 30 min. 15 min then wait again for the next session of 15 min. I was late and watched how my friends fell again again and again. at first i was thinking this must look very tough... I began asking around for advice from the regulars, i do not want to waste my $40... The guys were somehow impressed by me, either by my enthusiasm, my curiosity or my sporty looking body ( my friends thought i attracted this junior who acted a bit funny towards guys... like me...) I earnestly learn the theory and finally my turn came.

But my attempt was no better than the other guys. None of us actually managed to stand up. My very first attempt left my left hand middle finger internal bleeding cos there was this awesome thug when the speed boat pulled the board. i think about 5 minutes of crash and waiting for the line passed then i finally told myself, Ivan dun be a impatient idiot. take your time and progress each step. Then i looked up to the sky and thanked God for letting me have this chance, and asked him to let me go a little further before falling. And I did. I managed to bend my knees up and the board almost stabilized. of course i came crashing again. But i had more faith, and asked God for more distance and he was faithful.

But when i almost got the hang of things, my first 15 minutes was over. next was justin yeo. back at the floating platform where we wait, we began asking around like how many sessions it took for the regulars to get the hang of things. They then began comparing locations and said that our location, kallang river , is a pretty bad place to start. most of them had a few sessions before stabilizing. i began to be nervous. I knew wake boarding is not easy, but i never thought it could be that tough... Then i saw justin yeo almost standing up, but crashed as usual. then the girl, Maggie, began asking who wants to go next. I asked her to show us what to do since she so enthu to teach, then she went. when she entered the water, the boat sped off, and in 2 seconds the board stabilized and off she went, almost like a pro. Back at the platforms, echoes of "ownage" filled the air.

Then justin yeo began telling me, actually its not that tough, although theory is important, you just need the feeling... I was like... what if i dun have the feeling? It was justin goh's turn. he managed to stabilize , probably inspired by Maggie, but he could only last like 5 seconds. I was like, justin goh was the only potential looking one since the first 15 minutes he managed to stabilized a bit, then in his second session he could stabilize more. I was demoralized since i did not stabilized at all the first 15 minutes.

then my turn came, I was determined but nervous. But my friends began telling me not to worry and try my best. Encouraged i went into the water, only to disappoint myself, i messed up and went smacked down into the water. Looking up and waiting for the boat to pick me up, i asked God, "God, just let me do this." 2nd try. I managed to stand up! I got the sensation but it was short lived. I too came crashing same like the others. But i was determined. I asked God again, and i went slightly further, this time i got the hang of things. The driver kept saying that i am good, now i would prove how good i really am. The next try i took my time, the feeling was right, I managed to synchronize the waves and the board, i kept my balance. And then I realised, I am wake boarding. I could not see the others cos i do not have my specs, but i know that the rest were staring in awe. I went the whole length of the kallang river and managed to make a turn, but the turn proved abit too challenging, I starting drifting away from the line of the boat. and the waves toppled me.

well todays a fun experience, i and the guys would probably wake board every fortnight cos its quite ex. And oh yeah, whole body aching cos of it. the meditation helps though. Ok if anybody wants to know more, just let me know yeah? see ya