Hey hey hey, exams ending soon... but not yet finish yet! haha, but here i am writing for you dedicated fans of themysteriousgift.blogspot.com! continue to support this site with your prayers and constant thoughts of the rare christian ivan! wahahaha! FUUUUUUUUUUU!

Anyway i finally complete the sentence for " how rare? medium rare." the additional is for God to say "well done" wow! i really look forward to that day! hahaha.

Anyway, i might be making a game for fun, using C# to make the logic blah blah blah... So phebe here's the new pic of the protaganist of the game!


Hero "Stiege"

And here's the Rocker Princess that i created that day, just touched up on her a bit...


Rocker Princess Rita!

The game will be something like Final fantasy like that, or you could say that it is a clone. BTW, check it out Final Fantasy 7 : Dirge of the Cerberus is out! All Final Fantasy fans who played ff7 and watched Advent Children and Before Crisis, go get it now!


haha going to get it once i lay my hands on a ps3.

PS3 is going to be released like next september, by then i will wait for a year for the price to drop then i will purchase it with FF12 and FF13! FUUUUUU!


PS3, controllers not actual.

We had BS last friday and had a little debate about whether its ok to purchase little pleasures, things that we enjoy that cannot be used to glorify God. And i gave them my answer: All things are permissible, but not all things are beneficial. If what you get hinders you from getting close to God, remove it. Like the verse thats say if your hand cause you to sin, cut it. Its better to enter the kingdom of heaven maimed then enter hell. We can get what ever we want, however discern the motive behind the purchase. God despise pride, for people who buy things and boast about them. so ya, discern, and reflect if that thing is going to cut you away from God.

So ya, careful wat you buy k? esp girls who cannot control your money spendings... dun point fingers guys... girls you know who you are... hahaha!

kk better go back and study liao... dun be sad k? once my com up and running i will upload all my videos! and by then i will get my Video cam back! yay!

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Hey Hey HEy, slacking during the exams period. Not really but am here to show evidence that i really do study!



Haha, Dennis , Zerong, Damien and me at our final attempt to master engineering maths 2. Not easy man... haha but i pulled through... i think...



Hmmm, kinda look back at it... i really wished i had put in more effort...

THATS WHY I CANNOT SLACK LIAO! I promise i will blog more once i finsh exams! I promise.

Ivan out! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!

Hey guys! i will be updating my blog much lesser than usual... ( aw... ) hahaha.erm, partly due to the exams? haha, i wish that i was more hardworking... However i will be adding many videos i took with my trusty Sony Ericsson K700i. Note that the quality isnt that great, but i love taking videos. When i get back my old sony camera, i will be taking more proper videos. Haha, looks like i am going more media based than word based liao. Better for you to share my experience than let you read more nonsense all the time. FUUUUUUUUU!

but before i leave there's more urgent things to attend to and thats...

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ERHZ! sup guys! the past few days i realized one thing, its expensive to go for all the activities you wanna go... haha, think about all the food you need to eat! I just went to the fireworks festival yesterday ( not bad New Celedonia, however a tree was obstructing my view... ) and i had to eat something... and i spend a total of $15 bucks total on food for the whole day. Partly is due to the fact that i and my friend chiong pizza hut and KFC for lunch... (first time i cried while eating KFC, Because i was that close to exploding...) haha, guys watch what you eat k? You are truely wat you eat.

I truely see the danger of burning out, and staying away from the people who gave you the burnt out... There's a high tendency that you might backslide, cause you are enjoying what you might call freedom. Its feel so good to do what you wanna do, unlike doing stuff that you might feel obligated to do... So why burn yourself out? Let me tell you from my experience why i got burnt out.

There's the dead line. You enjoy what you are doing until you recieved the deadline. Thats when everythings dead. I enjoy doing doing things however, time limit restraints the joy of serving. However, i know that this is my mistake, i do not have discipline and time management. Guys, what we do know is being programmed into the future us, the attitude we have for our jobs and stuff like that. We might suffer a repercussion.. it might intensify... lets do our best to discipline ourselves. Just like paul said that he beat his body to listen to him, He has total power over his body! Sloth is indeed a deadly sin, so lets buck up k?

Another factor is failure to accomplish what you hope to accomplish. The session i had with you all, i was already in burnt out mode. however, i used whats remaining of my spiritual discipline to bring forward my message. However, it was not wat i hope it turned out to be. I did not let God take control of the picture, I was a games show host more than a preacher... I was inadequete. Thats because i did not think about something about myself... my limits! I thought i can do everything. I thought i can really do everything through him who gives me strength! How naive i truely was... If i can do everything then wouldn't i be better in everything i do? I can everything? I expected too much of myself. And now i find myself running away from the source of failure, my motivation. I brainwashed myself into thinking i was some kind of Superman... haha, superman on kryptonite more like...

Right now you all may be wondering why i may be fading a little in the YF... i do not want to be noticed... I hope to lead the quiet life once more, more time for myself,so i can grow on my own. Its not that i do not want fellowship, but i want just more space for myself... i just feel like i want to be alone for the while K? so pls dun be so worried when you read this, i truely understand the situation i am in. I am doing something about this.

Haha... during this time, i will exploring the world of music for the while. i truely want to see the world. I want to. So you keep updated with my life through my videos, i will upload the crucial moments in my life k? I promise!

And oh yeah... I may want to stay single for quite a while... i realised that i still cannot control certain parts of my emotions and desires... haha you know what i mean lah... plus God have not really shown me who i should approach... The loniness is gripping me at time, but hey, his grace is sufficient for me. There are times when i break down in repentance, crying my heart out like a baby in front of the Lord, crying for hope, crying for someone to embrace me. I come to church to worship the Lord with my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. But I can truely worship him, just me and my trusty guitar, strumming tunes like amazing grace, or the songs i wrote... The tears that flow, express enough how much i truely yearn to see the Lord, How much i do not want to live in this world where i must go through all the emotional and physical strains...

sure i may sound depressed, but hey, The joy of the Lord is my strength. I know that the Lord expects my return, like the prodigal son, on top of that, i realised that i am pretty bold when it comes to battling with the spiritual realm, i want more exposure. I truely want to see casting out of demons, evil spirits, hauntings... Dunno why... But i sense the sovereignity of the Lord more in times of Darkness rather than in comfort zone. I want to be like Peter who stepped out of the boat to approach Jesus at sea. There's more to this, I know! I cannot stay enclosed in this secular world, where everyday life is just about sustaining and upgrading your diminishing physical life. I need to explore the world!

Ah hah, but what is my priority? Sure its study, family, church, my band, silkroadonline account... but my greatest want is to explore everything the Lord has created! The beauty! the horrors! oh i am so excited at the thought of going to see the world! argh! so excited it hurts...

But now all these are just dreams... reality is that i got to work for everything... I cannot fail my mother in studies now... I want to excel in my guitar so i can bless the youth... I want to master the guitar first then come and help the youth!

With me and my guitar, I am going to sign out now! CYA!

~~~~~IVAN OUT TO TO TO!~~~~~~

Yo! welcome back for an all new adventure of the rare christian Ivan! The date is 7th of august 2006 and the time is 7.07 pm. perfect timing.

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ERHZ~! Long time no see guys. I hope you did not go for counselling sessions just because i had take a short leave.Any ways guys, time for an update-te! I am still hahaha, happy cause i have to. No rather i say i got to be happy for this period of time, for who knows what lies ahead. Can you ever foresee the dire consequences of forsaking thy destiny? " To be or not to be, that is the question..." - (no link). ARGH!, the very thought of it brings shivers down your spine, hairballs atuck in your throat, bad hair days, your best friends cooking, armegeddon, the end of reality. Yes my friends, there's no escaping from the horrific beast that appears every halfth of thy year. He raises you or crush your whats-left-of-your-brain to smitterins. You probably got it right, Its the exams.

You still can say cheh, you really buay bah ar. Skin so thick i go to war need AP to scratch you? You study yet? Not yet? Still reading this blog ar! SI GI NA(hokkien)!Chee Du Su LAH(Singapore chinese)! eh, where you all going? Blog entry still not finish lah.

Recently, life was rather interesting for the while. God was faithful and allowed many things to occupy my time in times of spiritual dryness. I look forward to serving the Lord with a Dua heart and a Dua smile! :)

Have you been to the NDP this year? AH hah, sry lah. i know its not time yet. However, i truely recommend this years for the fire works. truely a work of art and timing precision. And if you got the chance , go catch the fireworks festival this 3 days. Its really something that you can look forward too, cos singapore got too much money liao. So they got to burn it, by burning fireworks in the sky. Dun you just love this spoiled nation?

And yeah, attended the preview show with my cousin, Lester. Was probably enjoyable cos i never attended a NDP for years. However this year is special, cos its gonna be the last in the Kallang Stadium.

And yeah, those who attended the Festival of Praise ( FOP ) held in the indoor stadium during the 4,5,6 of august, hope you were edified by the messages and praise sessions. I do enjoy the praise ( note i did not say worship, cause the noise and lyrics make it hard to ... Worship ) and the message based on the passage of Gideon the mighty warrior. I AM A MIGHTY WARRIOR! FUUUUUUUU! haha. thank God for the message.

haha, i also attended the SUPERBAND DA JUE SAI! WOAH! steady ar singaporeans! Go forward in the music scene ba! I would like to congratulate MILO Bing! I will start drinking milo bing until you become faded like poor taulfik, who is currently working as a staff in 7-11, so when you see him say hi k?

Ar!The band J3lli-F1$H is going to record its first song, titled "I suck at guitar". So when my band record finish it liao, support support k? haha, Norman dun hate it cos its a little simple plannish.

KK. SP students, watch out for MM day, I have a probability of performing, of course not alone lah. later i steal the show how? haha. Will most likely be playing a nickelback song. Happy guessing.

ARgh! really need to study and practice on the guitar, must not lose out to you guys at church. esp. people like norman, jasper and yangkai. I hope to catch up with you guys soon.

Now that Charles is Hainan on a business stint, Don and I ( russell peter's hong kong joke) will be overlooking over the Christian education sector of the Yf ministry. So pls guys, We need more people to enter the ministry.

I will be bringing up Yuki as the future leader of the Yf in one way or the another cause i want to help him grow in Leadership.

Ok ok., i got to go, my cousin dragging me to go to the pasar malam downstairs. so see ya k!?

IVAN OUT_TO_TO_TO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey welcome back guys. Thanks for praying for me and reading about the mysterious gift. I want to acknowledge the people that see me through prayers. Thank you whoever out there.

Now seven month. Hungry Ghost festival... BOO! haha, hope i did not scare you there. However, now i want to share a little about the paranormal and it can be a little not too comfortable to read... since you can still smell the incense from the burnt offering... ...

I used to be very intrigued and curious about things i can never really understand. Some of the things are:
- God
- Extra terrestrials
- prophecies
- occult
- girls

and one of them to top the list is... you guessed it, GHOSTS! I never really encountered the paranormal before, however, I heard many stories about them. I hope that next time someone ask you whether you ever encountered, pls lah, dun have means dun have, dun come make some story k? All those stories of complete apparitions of humans have a high possibility of being fake.

Let me tell you what i firmly believe before you come and tell me that i talking or believe in nonsense or not obedient to God's word. First of all, I want you to know, you not believing does not means its not there. Same with God. Its also the same with lost souls and evil spirits. I believe in learning about everything so you wont be too shocked when something happens. IVAN OF ALL TRADES STRIKES AGAIN!

Here is what i know. Spirits are clumbs of electrical entities. They cause distortion in the atmosphere, magnetic field and can cut off current in a circuit or short circuit items. Upon which, they react with the surrounding atmosphere, or particles in the air, causing a possibility of forming some kind of image. However if you all realize, you cannot see electric currents. Therefore you need specialised equipments or apparatus to see them or listen to them. However i do not want to cover that as it is another story by itself.

There are many category of spiritual encounters, ranging from your average orbs to a real angry poltergeist. They cause damage from shocking you to death, to tearing your house apart. They can be anywhere, everywhere. You might feel them at times, they distort your sensory systems at times, thats the reason why sometimes, you get too shocked to move when you see one, since your system is not listening to you anymore. Here are some of the things you might feel:
- Chills at your back
- aching back
- bad feeling of something
- headaches
- numbness
- weird feelings in your body
- many others

However scary or powerful the entity is, let us remember that we have a God who saves. He protects and in the authority given to us by Jesus, evil spirits cannot harm us. The truth shall set you free. There is only one spirit in us and thats the Holy Spirit. Keep faith that the Lord will protect and shelter. Believe in the spiritual realm, the realm where God reigns and angels and demons battle. In this realm, a parallel dimension, is very real. I read about 2 american scientist who tried to time travel, using nuclear technology , using speed to light quantam physics to propell particles across dimensions, returned from a place where they saw things too scary to describe and went mad. Dunno the story true or not, but there is still the possiblity, like i mean, can you imagine invisible people? The US already have cloaking what, nothing new.

Whether you want to find this useful, up to you. You read it already what, haha i accomplished something. So wisen up and learn what you read but discern. Ask about what you read and comment on this entry if you all can about your encounters and explanations. I am sure others want to know to.

May the Lord bless those who seek his knowledge and face.

Ivan out!