Hi welcome back, its been quite a while and i am suppose to be slping now, but had such a great day today, so i thought better write down ( or type down ) today's experience while its still fresh ( from the oven ).
~~~~~BLOG time, LETS guuuuuuuoooooooooo!~~
Alright, todays' Melvin's Birthday, have not seen for about more than 3-5 years? Dunno, btw she's the son of my Aunt Avon's Co-partner's Director's Wife (who is a close friend of my aunt). He's 20 today, gonna talk a little about him today.
He's slow. He's in a private Secondary School, and still cannot pass his N levels. He dances para para, and plays many computer games. He is ultra delayed response and blur. But one thing. He's nice. And he has many friends. ( and he is loaded )
Went there, a straight away while munching away on food for guest ( Calamari, satay, otah, chicken wing, fries, siew mai, aunt jenny's fried beehoon (melvin's mum) and many packet drinks.) made aquaintence with a local ( although we highly doubt ) (we as in Kellie, Lester and Me), whose name is Gamini. He seriously looks like he came ( air-flown ) from India. but, anyway. He's 24 and just graduated from ITE, now looking for a job.
Saw some of his friends and seriously have no idea where most of them came from or how they are related to Melvin. A guy from St Patricks, former squash C division player (when i was still captain) seems to really care for him? Lester and I were chatting away at the front porch of the Semi-Bungalow, when he suddenly came in from the front gate, telling us about he defending Melvin from a local gang named, "Chaos". Lester and my response were like "Ookay..."
Played alot with the gigantic Carps, each weighing around 6-10 kg, in this 2m deep and 2x1m wide pond that Melvin's father built at the side of the house. They suck! literally as in vacuum power level sucking! they suck so hard that when i placed my hand about 10 cm away, they can suck my hands to their lips. Ticklish but funny, I played with the carps and the mealworms that they were suppose to eat.
Here's a video of me feeding the fishes... can be quite a hand therapy!
And here's a vid of uncle alans redtail catfish! MEOW!
They stay in a big and luxurious home (semi-b). Its worth about 1.5m and furnished for a king. the facade is decorated with nature, vines, and many sitting bars and park benches. the porch and the carpark has a swing and some natured themed benches. Each family member has their own room (about 6, including maid) in a 8 room house. Each of the bedroom is like a house of its own, each with the owner's personality and preference of furnishing in mind.
Really living like kings... and the friends he has, starts to worry cos some of them sincere and some, not sure there for the money? anyway, benefit of the doubt lah.
There was this girl there, Janice. pretty looking and the most outstanding of all the girls there (the other would be Kellie, cos she going clubbing later...). Leon, my youngest cousin, showed off to them that i dare to touch the fishes... I was happily going to munch on a oreo bar when he draggged me back to the pond to make me put my finger into the water to let the fish suck on it. Then had a very little conversation with her, then she asked me to join her to play the Xbox in Melvins private gaming room, before i could respond, she said "you dun look like you were interested, bye (runs off)" haha, what a weird experience. Maybe i too old for young energetic girls?
But quite weird, dun tell me i look boring or not interested in anything? argh does not matter but its bugging me...
then there was the dance "competition" it started when lester was doing a dance routine at the request of aunty Avon for aunty Jenny to see, then it was a mass cha cha session in which i partnered my aunt ( i think i just finished a Tiger ), then it was the showdown of the PARA PARA competitors!
First up we have Melvin, with the song, eurobeat, dance moves are the original para para moves.
Next up is Gamini, same song, i think, free style?
Sunday, November 19
Sunday, November 12
Hey welcome back. Again i was faced with another day of agonising glory watching my week go by without studying... SHOCK! what the... wat have i been doing the past week? Its E learning week and the most slack one ever come across and i still can never do my work.. I am hopeless i tell you, hopeless.... oh well. Might as well type the best entry with watever days i have left...
~~~~~~~~BLOG GOGOGOGOGOGO!~~~~~~~~~~~
Alright!, its been a while, since you last saw me... not really ? 2 hours may be eternity you know. Just had a great time jamming with my cousins just now. I mean, my ultimate agenda is just to learn more songs, so i really treid my best ya?
The First song, Here without you, I really wanted to play the song much, but always playing my own interpretation of the song, which is because i never really listened to the song, pity. But it took me ten minutes practice with the tabs and here's the outcome. ENJOY!
btw, my cousin Lester, man he's taller than me now, joker as he is, he's a real cool dancer. i will try and upload his school's vid next time. He can be quitee fluid.
Alright next song that they forced me to play ( which i took the burden gladly ) was Iris, now you may be quite familiar with the Goo Goo doll's version. Kellie chanced upon the Avril Lavigne's rendition but played with the goo goo dolls themselves, now here is Kellie and Ivan (simple strumming) 's version of the song!
Alright. so there you have it. The teos jamming like the neighbours never complained before. Aight, I have decided to do basic engineering in the future, get a day job then excel for stardom. When i reach 30, i think i will do that "Sacred music" and "Divinity" studies in a Bible college.
By then i can afford that fountain i really want to put in the church, and make the Youth Ministry a independent and blooming ministry. so I have 10 years to make it big somehow. no worries. Apparently, I should reach paul gilbert's guitar level in one years time with the effort i need to put in ( way much more than i am doing now )
Anyway, Justin says i cant sing, haha, who am i lying to i guess. I never was proud of my singing skills, my vocals were never good. I think my head kept swelling in the youth ministry when people kept telling me that i sounded nice, good singing, watever... haha... then i was demoralised. my morale for many things shattered. so exaggerated i guess. but guess what. Its my new motivation. after my 2 days phobia of attempting to squeek a note, i know i need vocal training. next year after my ITP , by then i pray i already have my next chairman for YF, I will join choir and find a vocal trainer.
Mean while I plan to start piano in dec/jan. then i can play some organ for VertiCross, they plaing some Coldplay songs. quite cool, but will sound better with some piano. Apparently Bobby, one of the guitarist, says he knows a pianist, who is quite ok... maybe grade 5 around there? asks whether can intro her, at first we said anything, then he started to talk further on about someone posted her pictures in SGgirls.com, i think you should know our answers lah.
HAHA really ar, got a good looking female vocals really will bring you places... anyway, just to let you know, We made it thru the next round of Band Edge, i mean you know why? stupid reason, cos we are the only band with a female vocals. ARGH! what kind of reason is that? next time i bring a dog to sing then they also let us in cos we have a dog as a vocals lah. sian man...
Got really touched by the two messages today, one by rev strauss and steven of Doulos. Strauss managed to drive to me a conviction of serving the youth ministry full time in the future. I really want to see QLC YF flourish, i want to accomplish what Kenny and the rest of the YF hope to see, Where both chinese and English congregation, united, worshipping as a independent worship ministry, in dynamic and proactiveness!
Steven drove across the God divine nature of his calling for others to serve, in one way or the other. I cannot help but tear abit as i let them lead worship, out of pure intent, of service to God.
Then played pool with Feng nan, lost to him 5-3, i played badly, but he managed to get quite a few good shots. HAHA i managed to master the back ball technique... but i still cannot drive the ball straight... argh!
then later went to the arcade with him, cos someone rigged Drummania to allow 4 stages, where a double song still counts as a stage, (meaning you can be stuck there for about 1/2 and hour drumming, good money) then pump a credit along with the already 2 credits pumped by the other players... then the long wait began. We watched 2 guys, professionally blasting dinosaurs in Jurassic Park 2 the shooter, until i think from start until almost 2nd last stage, went over to see noobish girls dancing in Dance Dance Revolution... ( btw i go up to 7 steps and 8 steps for some songs.... but i getting old liao...sobs) then finally went back to see the other drummers finish. Then my turn came. Played a warm up song, level 54 song, quite rapid rolls but simple song, got an A. Then i think got alot of people behind me. ( i feeling preetty good. but remembered that FN has to go back ASAP.) but something made me do something dumb. so many people, i went to chose a level 60 song. ( I mean its no kick lah, i can easily drum a level 70 song,) but i never play before, then i struggle to survive... then i guess i cannot really be bothered to play after seeing my life so bad already, with a shake of my head i allowed myself to lose the round. A 30 minute game turned into 10. but doesnt matter, i mean i waited for my turn so long, watched them play so much till i really dun feel like playing already i guess...
argh, man. I told FN not to talk to me about girls. about relationships. its getting upon my nerves. I know i should not take out my anger upon couples but i just cant help it. Something is biting into me, making "not like" the girls i know who are attached. argh. I want yet i despise what i truely want. its getting bitter. but does not matter, i have God to live on. My guitar and my passions. I guess i dun not need anything else. To me, what i truely want i cannot keep, i cannot treasure, I really am hopeless when it comes to my social life now. I want to stop wearing that mask that everybody wants to see. A smiling and understanding ivan. Sometimes its true, but sometimes its just plain tolerance. I am praying for me to change my ways. Believe me i do not want to be like this. but God help me, my passion is already eating me i guess.
But i guess i am embracing my destiny, i was born in a system of no real freedom in the things i do, why i thought of entering the seminary when i am 30 only is the fact that my family really do not want to see me there. I realise that i have many jealous relatives about my disciplined life, guitar learning, school work, social life, argh.
painful. i lead a spiteful life of tolerance of society and disgust myself with the sinful nature of many people. I am more disgusted at myself. If anything can reflect what is in my heart, you will see, dirtiness, grime that is so black that it can eat light, odours so pungent that will make every atom in your body never wanting to get near me. You will shun me the moment i reveal my heart to you. Its a painful and lonely heart. a heart that yearns. a heart that bleeds.
You know, joycelyn shared about her joys with couples fighting... somehow, i need to walk away from that stage. she's childish, her mindset, are just twisted in someways. then again, it could be a gender thing... man. I can just type on andd on and on... Girls, you be nice to them, they think you up to something, then you dun talk to them, they think we avoiding them. CAN YOU STOP THINKING FOR ONCE! argh, i wish God took them out of our heads so they can have more brains, or think in our shoes for once....
I have nothing against you girls, i really like you, but i guess i am stepping on loose soil when i think about you. I tend to fall to sin easily and my principles, smitten. What am I, somekind of homicidal maniac?
Music , the only thing, like a remedy to a dying soul. diminished by society of today. Lord can I depend on you for the strength i seek? Lord How i wish i can see you, touch you, kiss you, walk beside you, pray beside you, wash your feet. I really want to serve you, yet you ask me to serve your people, why Lord why Lord? You love your people too much, some of them obviously you do not need to bother, but instead you send us to do your will. Lord... deepen my convictions, please.... I really want to serve you, but the flesh is so so so so weak... Do you see beyond the wretchedness that lies beneath? Lord you take upon my sins, so i can be free... Lord, what have i done to deserve this? Lord, what have i done to deserve this life you have given me, I SENT YOU TO THE CROSS. Lord, i sent you to the cross, you took the nails that i should rightfully take. Lord... why?
Why Lord, now i am forever indebted to you... and i see your family your church, in dire need for you. Lord, i can never be a good example. i hurt more than i influence right. My mind is so corrupted that i cannot look into someone in the eyes. I am beyond hope Lord, i so desire that new body that you promised. but like paul, i guess i must deny thyself. then take upon my cross...
Oh Lord deepen my convictions... smite my stubborn heart so that to others i am never worth comparing. So that lord, my pride can be replaced by faith... my heart lord, consume it with that purifying fire that we all sing about. A heart that will stand the test of flames. then you will see, remnants of the former self, sliding away like oil from that divine heart that you will install in me...
Lord, hold my hands... please... i beg you....
~~~~~~~~BLOG GOGOGOGOGOGO!~~~~~~~~~~~
Alright!, its been a while, since you last saw me... not really ? 2 hours may be eternity you know. Just had a great time jamming with my cousins just now. I mean, my ultimate agenda is just to learn more songs, so i really treid my best ya?
The First song, Here without you, I really wanted to play the song much, but always playing my own interpretation of the song, which is because i never really listened to the song, pity. But it took me ten minutes practice with the tabs and here's the outcome. ENJOY!
btw, my cousin Lester, man he's taller than me now, joker as he is, he's a real cool dancer. i will try and upload his school's vid next time. He can be quitee fluid.
Alright next song that they forced me to play ( which i took the burden gladly ) was Iris, now you may be quite familiar with the Goo Goo doll's version. Kellie chanced upon the Avril Lavigne's rendition but played with the goo goo dolls themselves, now here is Kellie and Ivan (simple strumming) 's version of the song!
Alright. so there you have it. The teos jamming like the neighbours never complained before. Aight, I have decided to do basic engineering in the future, get a day job then excel for stardom. When i reach 30, i think i will do that "Sacred music" and "Divinity" studies in a Bible college.
By then i can afford that fountain i really want to put in the church, and make the Youth Ministry a independent and blooming ministry. so I have 10 years to make it big somehow. no worries. Apparently, I should reach paul gilbert's guitar level in one years time with the effort i need to put in ( way much more than i am doing now )
Anyway, Justin says i cant sing, haha, who am i lying to i guess. I never was proud of my singing skills, my vocals were never good. I think my head kept swelling in the youth ministry when people kept telling me that i sounded nice, good singing, watever... haha... then i was demoralised. my morale for many things shattered. so exaggerated i guess. but guess what. Its my new motivation. after my 2 days phobia of attempting to squeek a note, i know i need vocal training. next year after my ITP , by then i pray i already have my next chairman for YF, I will join choir and find a vocal trainer.
Mean while I plan to start piano in dec/jan. then i can play some organ for VertiCross, they plaing some Coldplay songs. quite cool, but will sound better with some piano. Apparently Bobby, one of the guitarist, says he knows a pianist, who is quite ok... maybe grade 5 around there? asks whether can intro her, at first we said anything, then he started to talk further on about someone posted her pictures in SGgirls.com, i think you should know our answers lah.
HAHA really ar, got a good looking female vocals really will bring you places... anyway, just to let you know, We made it thru the next round of Band Edge, i mean you know why? stupid reason, cos we are the only band with a female vocals. ARGH! what kind of reason is that? next time i bring a dog to sing then they also let us in cos we have a dog as a vocals lah. sian man...
Got really touched by the two messages today, one by rev strauss and steven of Doulos. Strauss managed to drive to me a conviction of serving the youth ministry full time in the future. I really want to see QLC YF flourish, i want to accomplish what Kenny and the rest of the YF hope to see, Where both chinese and English congregation, united, worshipping as a independent worship ministry, in dynamic and proactiveness!
Steven drove across the God divine nature of his calling for others to serve, in one way or the other. I cannot help but tear abit as i let them lead worship, out of pure intent, of service to God.
Then played pool with Feng nan, lost to him 5-3, i played badly, but he managed to get quite a few good shots. HAHA i managed to master the back ball technique... but i still cannot drive the ball straight... argh!
then later went to the arcade with him, cos someone rigged Drummania to allow 4 stages, where a double song still counts as a stage, (meaning you can be stuck there for about 1/2 and hour drumming, good money) then pump a credit along with the already 2 credits pumped by the other players... then the long wait began. We watched 2 guys, professionally blasting dinosaurs in Jurassic Park 2 the shooter, until i think from start until almost 2nd last stage, went over to see noobish girls dancing in Dance Dance Revolution... ( btw i go up to 7 steps and 8 steps for some songs.... but i getting old liao...sobs) then finally went back to see the other drummers finish. Then my turn came. Played a warm up song, level 54 song, quite rapid rolls but simple song, got an A. Then i think got alot of people behind me. ( i feeling preetty good. but remembered that FN has to go back ASAP.) but something made me do something dumb. so many people, i went to chose a level 60 song. ( I mean its no kick lah, i can easily drum a level 70 song,) but i never play before, then i struggle to survive... then i guess i cannot really be bothered to play after seeing my life so bad already, with a shake of my head i allowed myself to lose the round. A 30 minute game turned into 10. but doesnt matter, i mean i waited for my turn so long, watched them play so much till i really dun feel like playing already i guess...
argh, man. I told FN not to talk to me about girls. about relationships. its getting upon my nerves. I know i should not take out my anger upon couples but i just cant help it. Something is biting into me, making "not like" the girls i know who are attached. argh. I want yet i despise what i truely want. its getting bitter. but does not matter, i have God to live on. My guitar and my passions. I guess i dun not need anything else. To me, what i truely want i cannot keep, i cannot treasure, I really am hopeless when it comes to my social life now. I want to stop wearing that mask that everybody wants to see. A smiling and understanding ivan. Sometimes its true, but sometimes its just plain tolerance. I am praying for me to change my ways. Believe me i do not want to be like this. but God help me, my passion is already eating me i guess.
But i guess i am embracing my destiny, i was born in a system of no real freedom in the things i do, why i thought of entering the seminary when i am 30 only is the fact that my family really do not want to see me there. I realise that i have many jealous relatives about my disciplined life, guitar learning, school work, social life, argh.
painful. i lead a spiteful life of tolerance of society and disgust myself with the sinful nature of many people. I am more disgusted at myself. If anything can reflect what is in my heart, you will see, dirtiness, grime that is so black that it can eat light, odours so pungent that will make every atom in your body never wanting to get near me. You will shun me the moment i reveal my heart to you. Its a painful and lonely heart. a heart that yearns. a heart that bleeds.
You know, joycelyn shared about her joys with couples fighting... somehow, i need to walk away from that stage. she's childish, her mindset, are just twisted in someways. then again, it could be a gender thing... man. I can just type on andd on and on... Girls, you be nice to them, they think you up to something, then you dun talk to them, they think we avoiding them. CAN YOU STOP THINKING FOR ONCE! argh, i wish God took them out of our heads so they can have more brains, or think in our shoes for once....
I have nothing against you girls, i really like you, but i guess i am stepping on loose soil when i think about you. I tend to fall to sin easily and my principles, smitten. What am I, somekind of homicidal maniac?
Music , the only thing, like a remedy to a dying soul. diminished by society of today. Lord can I depend on you for the strength i seek? Lord How i wish i can see you, touch you, kiss you, walk beside you, pray beside you, wash your feet. I really want to serve you, yet you ask me to serve your people, why Lord why Lord? You love your people too much, some of them obviously you do not need to bother, but instead you send us to do your will. Lord... deepen my convictions, please.... I really want to serve you, but the flesh is so so so so weak... Do you see beyond the wretchedness that lies beneath? Lord you take upon my sins, so i can be free... Lord, what have i done to deserve this? Lord, what have i done to deserve this life you have given me, I SENT YOU TO THE CROSS. Lord, i sent you to the cross, you took the nails that i should rightfully take. Lord... why?
Why Lord, now i am forever indebted to you... and i see your family your church, in dire need for you. Lord, i can never be a good example. i hurt more than i influence right. My mind is so corrupted that i cannot look into someone in the eyes. I am beyond hope Lord, i so desire that new body that you promised. but like paul, i guess i must deny thyself. then take upon my cross...
Oh Lord deepen my convictions... smite my stubborn heart so that to others i am never worth comparing. So that lord, my pride can be replaced by faith... my heart lord, consume it with that purifying fire that we all sing about. A heart that will stand the test of flames. then you will see, remnants of the former self, sliding away like oil from that divine heart that you will install in me...
Lord, hold my hands... please... i beg you....
Tuesday, November 7
ERhz, life's pretty mundane nows that its E-learning week for SP ( or Slack week or Self-proclaim holiday or watever you name it...) so here i am typing the latest entry, cos there aint any good games to play out there anymore... ( nuuuu.... ) But here's my last resort to entertain myself... and thats to entertain yuuuuuu!
~~~~~~~ BLog GOGOGOGOGO~~~~~~~~
Right! Time to get things right. Audition is this thursday, nervous cos its bigger than the other competition... and the fights between hard core rockers ( ROCK ON !..! ) and those poor EMO singers... ( argh, i dun like emo, makes me feel down everytime i hear one, nice tune but sad lyrics, one way to kill me...). Thanks to Doctor Sid, the bassist, He Zeng-ed the song to a more "VertiCross" style. makes me feel better to own a song rather than playing covers...
Haha, i cant wait till i play like...
-Micheal Angelo Batio
-Yngwie Malmstien
-Steve Vai
-Stevie Ray Vaughn
-Hyde of X japan
-Angus Yung
-Paul Gilbert
-Peter Chan Kum Soon
- many more...
Argh, the world of guitar! seh man, I really want to play like them... But first things first i want to settle something thats preventing me from doing so and i really want to settle it first.
1) Finding a new YF chairman : Wonder how come we still have not settle this yet? Cant pick any Tom Dick Harry to do this, or like Hazel told me "The Youth will collapse" in a sense i cannot agree more. A chairman's job is not very pressurising and demanding, but it requires you to make proper decisions. How to make? Lead a God fearing life, in constant prayer. Its God's ministry not mans. So still praying hard for the candidate to appear
2) My diploma : I already decided that aeronautical is not my field, i am just not interest enough to advance to that stage. However, not to let my mother down, I will study hard to at least get a masters in Mechanical engineering. Maybe over seas... but see what the Lord wills.
3) Guitar skills ( like a baby learning to walk ) : Its seems that i still have a long way to go with the guitar. Very inspired by Don who is so motivated to play guitar for worship. His talented i guess. I know i am not really. But I picked up a line in Naruto and thats " I am a genius of hard work ". Someone once told me that i am a fighter, i fight hard with watever little skills i have. I really wish to agree. How ever i really lack motivation.
Apparently, being single is really getting to me. Me being single child, most of the time alone by myself, wanting companionship. its draining to see couples happy together. I mean, really happy. they dun often get into fights... and they always do things together... I see that in Justin's relationship sometimes... although he is a little abusive of authority. The secret? Submission and understanding from the GF.
Haha... Submissive GFs... ironically, although guys always display higher authority and girls always want the guys in charge, you just cant seem to find a girl who is understanding enough to let the guy lead the way... Couples beware if your relationships are one sided.
Here's a check list based on my experience to break ups.:
1) You are always giving in : Its true that if you want a balanced relationships, sometimes you gotta learn how to say no. If you are tired, and she wants you to send her home, just explain the situation and head straight home.
2) You tend to lie to your GF: I tell you, girls got 6th sense. They can easily tell ( not all the times though ) whether you made a detour to a friends outing or a LAN outing when you said you are not free to meet her... Rather then avoiding some guilt trip or nagging from her (which you are not suppose to have), just throw the truth in front of her, and watch how she react.
3) You take constant advantage of the girl : If you engage in anything not good. like watever, abuse her or often scold her, prepare to lose her man.
4) You often do not have time : I should say that this is the no.1 killer of relationships. They take time to grow. Chasing Girls once, you know you will invest all the time in the world just to get her ( all you money as well... sobs...).Then when things settle down, you find out that there's more to be down, the world does not revolve around just the two of you, then you get involved in other things. then you do not have time for her. Slowly, she will fade away from your heart.
5) You tend to flirt easily : Not that i am a flirt, but when my self esteem was built up, i realised my wanting to look good. And when flaunting watever assets you have eg. good looks, good voice, big muscles... etc etc... It can be quite tempting to flirt, to show off to girls whos boss. There will always be girls who are prettier than your girlfriends out there, and sometimes you being friendly to them is really not helping...
6) Your eyes wander easily : Like I said you know that there girls prettier out there. I know why you tend to have this problem even though your relationship maybe settled and thats because you chased your current girlfriends with good look factors. Its may be so for some of you, so my only solution is to accept her and appreciate how she is.
7) You complain about your GF more than you praise her : Not saying that you say things with no base, just that you got nothing nice to say about her thats all. And why? maybe you should analyse why, sometimes a breakup may be the only solution for this.
8) You cannot let her go : I think sometimes you just dun see the right reason to break up. When the time comes for it, pray and then let go. Its not the end, and people wont say things about you. Rather people talk bad about me than i have a sour relationship.
So there you have it, some of my indicators to breakups. I mean, not that i often experience them, its just that i dun want to see others going through what i did.
And if you. Yes you, try to see that i am not trying to exploit you in anyway.
I really want to be single, now my substitute is the guitar. Till i find one who is willing to love me for who i am, i will not enter one.
There still are other stuff that the YF needs to do, and i will update further next time.
Your truely, whos mouth has unlimited ammunition, the rare christian IVan signing out.
~~~~SINGING (YEEEEEAHHH) OUT!~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~ BLog GOGOGOGOGO~~~~~~~~
Right! Time to get things right. Audition is this thursday, nervous cos its bigger than the other competition... and the fights between hard core rockers ( ROCK ON !..! ) and those poor EMO singers... ( argh, i dun like emo, makes me feel down everytime i hear one, nice tune but sad lyrics, one way to kill me...). Thanks to Doctor Sid, the bassist, He Zeng-ed the song to a more "VertiCross" style. makes me feel better to own a song rather than playing covers...
Haha, i cant wait till i play like...
-Micheal Angelo Batio
-Yngwie Malmstien
-Steve Vai
-Stevie Ray Vaughn
-Hyde of X japan
-Angus Yung
-Paul Gilbert
-Peter Chan Kum Soon
- many more...
Argh, the world of guitar! seh man, I really want to play like them... But first things first i want to settle something thats preventing me from doing so and i really want to settle it first.
1) Finding a new YF chairman : Wonder how come we still have not settle this yet? Cant pick any Tom Dick Harry to do this, or like Hazel told me "The Youth will collapse" in a sense i cannot agree more. A chairman's job is not very pressurising and demanding, but it requires you to make proper decisions. How to make? Lead a God fearing life, in constant prayer. Its God's ministry not mans. So still praying hard for the candidate to appear
2) My diploma : I already decided that aeronautical is not my field, i am just not interest enough to advance to that stage. However, not to let my mother down, I will study hard to at least get a masters in Mechanical engineering. Maybe over seas... but see what the Lord wills.
3) Guitar skills ( like a baby learning to walk ) : Its seems that i still have a long way to go with the guitar. Very inspired by Don who is so motivated to play guitar for worship. His talented i guess. I know i am not really. But I picked up a line in Naruto and thats " I am a genius of hard work ". Someone once told me that i am a fighter, i fight hard with watever little skills i have. I really wish to agree. How ever i really lack motivation.
Apparently, being single is really getting to me. Me being single child, most of the time alone by myself, wanting companionship. its draining to see couples happy together. I mean, really happy. they dun often get into fights... and they always do things together... I see that in Justin's relationship sometimes... although he is a little abusive of authority. The secret? Submission and understanding from the GF.
Haha... Submissive GFs... ironically, although guys always display higher authority and girls always want the guys in charge, you just cant seem to find a girl who is understanding enough to let the guy lead the way... Couples beware if your relationships are one sided.
Here's a check list based on my experience to break ups.:
1) You are always giving in : Its true that if you want a balanced relationships, sometimes you gotta learn how to say no. If you are tired, and she wants you to send her home, just explain the situation and head straight home.
2) You tend to lie to your GF: I tell you, girls got 6th sense. They can easily tell ( not all the times though ) whether you made a detour to a friends outing or a LAN outing when you said you are not free to meet her... Rather then avoiding some guilt trip or nagging from her (which you are not suppose to have), just throw the truth in front of her, and watch how she react.
3) You take constant advantage of the girl : If you engage in anything not good. like watever, abuse her or often scold her, prepare to lose her man.
4) You often do not have time : I should say that this is the no.1 killer of relationships. They take time to grow. Chasing Girls once, you know you will invest all the time in the world just to get her ( all you money as well... sobs...).Then when things settle down, you find out that there's more to be down, the world does not revolve around just the two of you, then you get involved in other things. then you do not have time for her. Slowly, she will fade away from your heart.
5) You tend to flirt easily : Not that i am a flirt, but when my self esteem was built up, i realised my wanting to look good. And when flaunting watever assets you have eg. good looks, good voice, big muscles... etc etc... It can be quite tempting to flirt, to show off to girls whos boss. There will always be girls who are prettier than your girlfriends out there, and sometimes you being friendly to them is really not helping...
6) Your eyes wander easily : Like I said you know that there girls prettier out there. I know why you tend to have this problem even though your relationship maybe settled and thats because you chased your current girlfriends with good look factors. Its may be so for some of you, so my only solution is to accept her and appreciate how she is.
7) You complain about your GF more than you praise her : Not saying that you say things with no base, just that you got nothing nice to say about her thats all. And why? maybe you should analyse why, sometimes a breakup may be the only solution for this.
8) You cannot let her go : I think sometimes you just dun see the right reason to break up. When the time comes for it, pray and then let go. Its not the end, and people wont say things about you. Rather people talk bad about me than i have a sour relationship.
So there you have it, some of my indicators to breakups. I mean, not that i often experience them, its just that i dun want to see others going through what i did.
And if you. Yes you, try to see that i am not trying to exploit you in anyway.
I really want to be single, now my substitute is the guitar. Till i find one who is willing to love me for who i am, i will not enter one.
There still are other stuff that the YF needs to do, and i will update further next time.
Your truely, whos mouth has unlimited ammunition, the rare christian IVan signing out.
~~~~SINGING (YEEEEEAHHH) OUT!~~~~~~~~~~~
Friday, November 3
WOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHOOOOOOO!!!! KAY KAY KAY! Time for .....
~~~~~~BLogogogogogogo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
Time to keep the intros short... and the content more satisfying... (to my own standards) Kinda realise i have a urge to satisfy everybody needs, whether stupidly or out of the way... Must be a gift ( could be seen as a curse at times ) anyway...
Shocker! in School! In Singapore Polytechnic, In mY Class! FUU!
Its the new and improved Ivan! He Does not wake up late anymore, does his homework, pay attentions in class, and looks more ah beng than ever ( sobx... :( )
His latest systems updates will be :
- Money Management
- Time Management
- Realistic Goal Settings
- Reading God's Word consistently
- Keeping Mouth shut to prevent saying stupid stuff
- Trying to wear contacts ( for performance sake )
- and many more
SOOOOOOOOO! WHILE STOCKS LAST!!!! THE FINAL PIECE LEFT FYI!
So Girls! grab him while he is still HOT, no point waiting to get him when his cheaper, cos his value is growing exponentially! HAHAHAHA
But you came back to my dreams... I keep seeing you and i realised that i desire for you, but my sinfulness will be my motivation to respect you as a good friend, whom i care for. I dare not be with you for i still cannot conquer my body... forgive me.
Anyway, promised i will update on my guitar regimes ( want some competition by year 2008) :
Nov 2006 - Jan 2007 ------------ Scales mastery and application
Alternate picking
more and more songs!!!!!
So ya, you wanna compete! Come along and let me know, I will gladly give you the materials and learn with you... ( actually just want to jam whenever ... play alone quite boring at times.... haha )
So not to boast or anything... I remember i made 2 promises and i plan to keep them
- To Edwin : To remove that dying christmas tree from the church and replace it with a fountain in 9 years time.
- To Joshua : To play the guitar for Hillsongs and City Harvest Church.
Dun plan to disappoint them... Anyway, starting to make up my mind about not pursueing aeronautical, but general mechanics for future studies, then i will pursue music all the way with a masters in engineering (any one...) So planning to keep my day job then pursue stardom for the Lord!
Applied for electric guitar course, and hope to see Kum Soon soon... ( no pun intended :)) He seemed quite excited when i was talking to him about it... Argh, I also so excited... And not to mention i am going to pick up piano to furnish my music creativity and theory! FUUUU! master musician in the house...
ARGH SO EXCITING!!!!!! CANT wait to play till i bleed! sweat or vomit! i just want more time for myself to practice my guitar!!!!!!! ARGH! i never really have the luxury... I want a new GUITAR!!!!! daryl told me about gibson SG... AND NOW I AM OBSESSED! STUPID AMERICAN GUITAR GOT ME HYPNOTISED!!!!! ARGH!
anyway, since i am learning to save money now, i plan to get the prized guitar in 1 year time, plus that ps3 next... but if i win some band competition or something like that lah... GO VERTICROSS! play your best!
Seems like they want to go heavy jap rock, like Alicenine... so unedifying, yet so addictive to the ears...
Ok better stay true to my words! better sleep now! NIGHTO!
~~~~~~~~~OUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUT(COUGH)OUTOUTOUT~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~BLogogogogogogo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
Time to keep the intros short... and the content more satisfying... (to my own standards) Kinda realise i have a urge to satisfy everybody needs, whether stupidly or out of the way... Must be a gift ( could be seen as a curse at times ) anyway...
Shocker! in School! In Singapore Polytechnic, In mY Class! FUU!
Its the new and improved Ivan! He Does not wake up late anymore, does his homework, pay attentions in class, and looks more ah beng than ever ( sobx... :( )
His latest systems updates will be :
- Money Management
- Time Management
- Realistic Goal Settings
- Reading God's Word consistently
- Keeping Mouth shut to prevent saying stupid stuff
- Trying to wear contacts ( for performance sake )
- and many more
SOOOOOOOOO! WHILE STOCKS LAST!!!! THE FINAL PIECE LEFT FYI!
So Girls! grab him while he is still HOT, no point waiting to get him when his cheaper, cos his value is growing exponentially! HAHAHAHA
But you came back to my dreams... I keep seeing you and i realised that i desire for you, but my sinfulness will be my motivation to respect you as a good friend, whom i care for. I dare not be with you for i still cannot conquer my body... forgive me.
Anyway, promised i will update on my guitar regimes ( want some competition by year 2008) :
Nov 2006 - Jan 2007 ------------ Scales mastery and application
Alternate picking
more and more songs!!!!!
So ya, you wanna compete! Come along and let me know, I will gladly give you the materials and learn with you... ( actually just want to jam whenever ... play alone quite boring at times.... haha )
So not to boast or anything... I remember i made 2 promises and i plan to keep them
- To Edwin : To remove that dying christmas tree from the church and replace it with a fountain in 9 years time.
- To Joshua : To play the guitar for Hillsongs and City Harvest Church.
Dun plan to disappoint them... Anyway, starting to make up my mind about not pursueing aeronautical, but general mechanics for future studies, then i will pursue music all the way with a masters in engineering (any one...) So planning to keep my day job then pursue stardom for the Lord!
Applied for electric guitar course, and hope to see Kum Soon soon... ( no pun intended :)) He seemed quite excited when i was talking to him about it... Argh, I also so excited... And not to mention i am going to pick up piano to furnish my music creativity and theory! FUUUU! master musician in the house...
ARGH SO EXCITING!!!!!! CANT wait to play till i bleed! sweat or vomit! i just want more time for myself to practice my guitar!!!!!!! ARGH! i never really have the luxury... I want a new GUITAR!!!!! daryl told me about gibson SG... AND NOW I AM OBSESSED! STUPID AMERICAN GUITAR GOT ME HYPNOTISED!!!!! ARGH!
anyway, since i am learning to save money now, i plan to get the prized guitar in 1 year time, plus that ps3 next... but if i win some band competition or something like that lah... GO VERTICROSS! play your best!
Seems like they want to go heavy jap rock, like Alicenine... so unedifying, yet so addictive to the ears...
Ok better stay true to my words! better sleep now! NIGHTO!
~~~~~~~~~OUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUTOUT(COUGH)OUTOUTOUT~~~~~~~~~~
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