right guys, thought of blogging a little so that i can sleep better tonight... know you guys miss me, yeah. no fret. I try not to break your hearts again. (just made another empty promise... man)

~~~~~~BLogGo Time.e.e~~~~~

Right, currently been making the church like mi 2nd home like that, everyday got stuff, practicing both worship and dance. YEAH YOU GOT THAT RIGHT! I'm dancin man, Oh! Jiggin with the dancing king, uh, feel that beat, oooh yeah, feelin... nvm...

Want to see that Hazel succeed in this, partly cos this is the first time i see her put in much effort, and i am kinda hooked to feelin those beats. Eh, no prob, I still jam, if i have the time, I even in the midst of recording our first single " Life" A undercover christian song. It will talk on basic emotions about how christians feel and the last verse is based on the book of revelations. Cool eh.

I feel so encouraged to see so many people involved in this camp. The Lord truely provides, i have been astounded time after time again at his providence. Hallelujah man, The big G up there rocks! I love you!

Its so easy to get burnt out in these period, but somehow, when i just divert all my energy to this, its seems enjoyable. I really see full time ministry as fulfilling as can be. I wanna lead dynamic youths to serve the living God. Amen, lets go forth to serve man. Radical.

I made a mistake recently, i organised a event, last minute, asking the youths to attend service on another day instead. I heard that pastor agreed, so happened the day of confirmation, i went to church. Had a hour talk with pastor. Its seemed that he was ok with it, telling me that its some of the congregation's wrong concept of worship, for worship is not confined within sundays only, but everyday... Then later, Jasper, who just returned from vacation, called to ask me what am i doing...
Then just to please him, and parents who may object i allow the youths to lose sometime.

Then today, jasper told me this, that pastor strongly disagree with my decisions, and was against me. That what we were doing was wrong example to display and stuff like that... i asked when he knew this, said that his dad had a lunch with him TODAY. I talked to him like 2 days ago liao... wah, somehow i feel backstabbed, by the pastor this time.

But nevermind, i take the blame if i have to, be the scapegoat this time. I want the YF to bond, to foster a relationship never done before, and i see the chance this christmas. with the stronger influence youths slowly disappearing, the less vocal have a chance to speak, and can see the energy and willingness flowing out from there.

I am very touched by some of the following youths.
- Eunice: put in efforts and does things without complaining
- Christopher: initiative and creative
- Hazel: energy and dance
- Sino and Matthew: Highly reliable, although sino always busy...
- Don: Sensetive and supportive. He truely can connect and go deep within a person.
- Yuki: availability and willingness, although he behaves like a kid at times
- gordon, shawn and jimmy: enthusiasm and willingness to learn
- auntie seok hoon: for bearing my presense everyday and investing so much energy into the youth
- christine: Her high focus and foresight into group activity and spiritual walk, wish i can invest as much time as her though. she made me open my bible again, just read 5 bible books in a week, and still reading.
- many more

I really think the youths can start a revolution, a breakthrough of strongholds. One day the church must acknowledge us as a independent ministry, not a training ground for future church leaders only. Whats the point if you keep losing your members.

Guys who are reading the blog. Pray for the youths that we will have a breakthrough in our walk to make YF a happening place.

Amen, may the Lord bless you and keep you in his grace

~~~~~~~~Signing out~~~~~~~~~~~